Friday, August 7, 2009

vomitting.....

I always want to know when I will vomit when I drink liqueur.
I had experienced it in Tuesday night...

That night, my friend ask me out to have a drink the pub at KK.
After teaching tuition, I went out with him to the pub, drinking and singing to karaoke.
that day was the birthday of the owner of the pub, my KK friends also went to that pub to celebrate for the owner..
I was drinking beer with my friend and my KK friends were drinking Chivas...
I went to their desk for social, well, I was asked to drink Chivas with them la...
after drinking beer and Chivas, the effect started to come when I drank a few more cups of beer.

I went to toilet for nature's call (effect of alcohol)... after i went out of the toilet, the feeling of vomiting suddenly came and i puke in front of the toilet... What a shame to me... :p

After that, I go into the toilet to puke again... I puke for 3 times for the night at different location... This is the experience which I can't forget for the rest of my life..

Monday, July 6, 2009

4th year 'so called' third seme...

Today is the official day of school reopen after 2 months break... I am now in lab helping my friend.. Pity her doing lab alone, she ask me to accompany her, because she is the only one doing lab now.. kinda scary...

Now is almost 3am.. and I am sitting in front of my laptop online-ing.. haha.. I like the line at school, is super duper extremely fast... Can you imagine downloading a song at 300kb/s!!! After downloading the songs, it is time to take a look at my very own ordinary aR@whY diary already....

Is been a long time since I post anything about myself on blogspot. Well, I am getting over trauma which happened 4 months ago slowly.. Enjoying my single man life.. Do what ever I want to, go which ever I want to... haha.. sadly, school had reopen.. So is time for me to move on... Need to strive in this semester and go home as a man...

Monday, June 22, 2009

Hello my own page....

Is been quite sometime since I post something on my very own blog and my very own page.
I had gone through many things in these few months. I think I will start to be active in posting blog again. :p

Please bear with me ah. I will update my post from time to time. :)

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

树与叶子的故事 2

最后,叶子和风走了。树留在原地,心在淌血,等待伤口痊愈。

Monday, January 12, 2009

Someone important to me

You...

You are someone who is really important to me. You get into my life when I was enjoy chatting with you until wee hours. You had became my second girlfriend after I was dumped by my first ever girlfriend.

We had gone through many things. Distanced relationship, happiness, argue, quarrel, enjoyment. But now it seems that our relationship does have cracks.

You have doubted our relationship. For over 2 year plus, I admit that I had not done my boyfriend task well. If you want to think of the sad things rather than then happiness that we gone through, then I can't comment because is my fault to make your not to feel so happy.

If this is the time to put an end, I respect your decision. The girlfriend that I know seems gone with the wind. I was like facing a cold machine without feelings. I hated people who are fake. One can act cold in front of me and burst out of laughter to friends on the other end of the chat.

Am I a machine? I also feel lonely over here. I also want someone to chat with me and care for me. A simple SMS will do for me. I kept holding on the relationship because you are the one for me. If you say you are tired, then am I energetic?

I just want to let you know that I still in love with you. But I can't do anything to alter your decision. I just wish you happy even the decision does breaks my heart.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

树与叶子的故事

树与叶子在一个偶然的机会下认识, 他们一起行动, 办事,帮助大众。 在这短短的日子里,他们过得很充实快乐。可是天下无不散的筵席,他们经过了一起办事的日子,大家回到了各自的岗位, 继续生活。他们却保持联络,经常聊天到天亮,互相了解对方。久而久之,大家都对彼此有了感觉。在一次的聊天中,树和叶子成为了一对恋人,过着简单快乐的恋爱期。

树当时却成为了树林中的代表,忽略了叶子的感受。树是一棵很木独的笨蛋,没落了叶子的期望和期待。而树的诺言也被树渐渐遗忘了。叶子却对树抱着很大的希望,希望树有一天会醒觉和实行他的诺言,可是叶子的希望也渐渐的消失了。

树和叶子逐渐的成长着,彼此的距离也逐渐的增加着。叶子长在最高最远的树枝上,天空就在她的上边,每天享受着温柔的风所带来的暖意。而树也在大地努力的吸取水及养分,希望能给予叶子一个充实的养分,不过他却忽略了叶子所期望的温情。

树渐渐走上了叶子的经历,被遗忘了。当树想挽回时,叶子却已经习惯了被风的暖意呵护着,逐渐遗忘了与树的一起度过的日子。树才知道当时叶子的痛楚及难受。

树只祈求叶子能够继续留在树的身边,好让树能继续呵护着他最爱的叶子,也让他能补回他曾许下的诺言。

叶子的离去,是因为风的追求,还是树的不挽留?

Sunday, January 4, 2009

越爱越难过

说 说你为什么 为什么要走
说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱
求你说出口 分手的理由
但你却拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖 拖 拖 大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
多么痛 多么的难过
别越爱越难过
Do Do Re Re Mi Mi Re Do
Do Do Re Mi Do

说 说你为什么 为什么要走
说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱
求你说出口 分手的理由
但你还拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖 拖 拖 大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
多么痛 多么的难过
别越爱越难过

然后连话都不说 继续沉默
连朋友都没得作 为了什么
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我
就算了吧 坏人我来做
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
多么痛 多么的难过
别越爱越难过
Do Do Re Re Mi Mi Re Do
Do Do Re Mi Do

Emptiness

Empty can be definite by hollow or nothing exist in a particular place or event (my definition). haha... It is kind of irony to my condition now. Although I am now in final year and final seme but my current state is empty. I don't have any passion to do something but just sit in front of my laptop and online reading novels and wishing my handphone to have that ringtone for a particular people rang so that I can chat with that person.

Many of my friends are worry of my status but I bluffed them with I just simply want to change the status only. But the problem is, I also don't know my current status is?? It is kind of stupid and childish as I should be busy with my final year project and everything. Is it indicate that is time for me and the person whom I mentioned to move on? Or I should kept on step on the same old place??

I always wonder is there any place for me to clear my mind?? Above the cloud? At beach? Listening to Linkin Park or Jay Chou or Eason Chan? I am totally lost. Emptiness had totally tore my heart and I was like drown into a pool of dark cold water with the depth indicated never end. I wish I could run away from everything. But in reality, it can't be done. People needs to face their own problems and challenges everyday. Today you avoid it but you still need to face it in the other day.

It is not the end of the world for me. I am in a nutshell still. The result is either cruel or bring happy ending to me.. Who knows? I don't know. haha..

爱不疚

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後 或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够

遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够

放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有